doing 100%

A few days ago i walked past a window without looking out of it(for me, that's major)...i kept walking 'cause i was tired of looking out d window and not jumping up in surprise..i was tired of living in d future...expecting
This seems to apply everyway ...wear makeup if i'm sure it'll look good, keep studying only if i believe i'll understand...look out the window only if i'm expecting a surprise.
But ... that doesn't sound like a faith-filled one: if i trust Father will give me good success, why don't i keep studying...If i trust Father to have surprises stored up, i shud keep looking out the window...
it's a few days past and i haven't jumped in surprise(yet) but i trust father...
i'm learning to give a 100% to my loved ones: hug them with all my heart, smile with all my mouth, give all i can.... not 'cause i'm sure they'll giv it back but 'cause i trust Father will...Thing is, with every hug, smile, effort, i feel like i'm living 100%

Life's better shared

Found myself wanting company more than normal these past days..but none seemed to go my way all through the day...really disappointing.. 'cause i found myself pouring me into them within those few hrs...but they were either too full or full of holes if you get what i mean...
took some time and more emotions but i finally hear... it is Father drawing me closer...asking me to pour me into Him...what was i thinking?!...who else?! :-)
it's like i'm just starting to live...and the most satisfying thought:  I can count on Him being here...